Okay... So I did something that was really quite hard for me to do today... but I am so proud of myself and I feel so free because of it. What did I do? I'm so glad you asked! I deleted my ex boyfriend off Facebook, out of my phone and e-mail. I also told him in a very blunt text that I never want to have any form of contact with him again.
I know.. not that big of a deal to some people...but for me that was huge!!! See.. I rarely walk away from people. I rarely stop and say, "I don't want you in my life anymore". This is the 3rd time in the nearly 26 years I've been alive that I've severed ties with someone. I always wait for them to sever ties with me. That way it wasn't my choice. They did it to me. They have no right to hate me because I didn't walk away from them. I know pathetic. But I'm aware of it now and I'm working hard on changing that. I don't know how he responded cause I handed my phone over to my God mother and she has it for the night and is diligently deleting his text messages as he sends them to me so that I don't get all emotional and take it back. It's not that I wan't to have anything to do with him either...it's that I dont particularly like to hurt people and I might just cave in to get him to shut up. I dont know which it would be but either would be a waste of time because the result is the same. I want him out of my life.
Now after deleting ex boyfriend out of my life I felt inspired to delete others. So I have officially deleted 4 people and I'm sure there are others I need to delete but they are just not coming to mind. It feels good though to prune your life. I feel free and I highly recommend this whole stand up for yourself and cut out toxic relationships thing! It feels good! :D
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